04-07-2011, 06:54 AM
Particularly me...everyday it's plaguing me. I have such an irrepressible sexual urge and it is causing daunting problems; indulging in wanking and watching internet porn ,acting out with girls, promiscuous, sleazy behavior, loss of focus and concentration toward my goals and school, leading a double life -I go to church and act like everythings dandy when Im raging with lust and having reocurring sexual fantasies- utter loss of self esteem and confidence. Porn is a drug. It started with just half naked pics, then fully nude pics, softcore porn then hardcore, all sorts of fetishes and its just a downward spiral. I clearly need help. I dont want to become the sexual pervert who has sex with animals or God forbid a sex offender. Im not an evil person trust me, im a nice 19 year old guy who loves playing instruments and sports, I love chattering with people and family I also love knowledge and adventure , but I'm enslaved by sexual desires. I've joked about all the guys who appear on dateline to catch a predator, people who commit public newdness and porn addicts before, but sadly im going down that very path. Please bestow some advice or knowledge on my dire soul, I haven't told anyone about my plight , because,frankly , I'm embarrassed and ashamed of myself .Ive been in this degenerate condition for 7 years and sometimes I feel like taking my own life but Im to chicken to do it. Does anyone have similar experiences?
